i sink into the walls. [entries|friends|calendar] gumbo [ website | perfect as new ] i want so badly to believe that there is truth that love is real. &i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd. ♥ ♥ ♥ [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[31 Oct 2005|08:51pm] last call for sin pneumotomy shes electriccc

muy importante, sluts. [28 Oct 2005|05:27pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | motion city soundtrack ] d00d. i got a new one. this one is too obscene for me. pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy pneumotomy LAST ONE. reallyreallyreally. 1 shes electriccc

[26 Oct 2005|08:57am] burn it down 'til the embers smoke on the ground. &start new when your heart is an empty room with walls of the deepest blue. fall fades; how it ages when you're away. spring blooms; &you find the love that's true. but you don't know what now to do 'cause the chase is all you know. &she stopped running months ago. i want to go to olive garden with crystal today. !!! &it kills me that i can't really update anymore. i should honestly dump this journal. i don't have the internet at home. &it's been probably around a week. i really am going crazy. but i'll be okay if i have christmas to look forward to. ♥ 4 shes electriccc

[24 Oct 2005|08:19am] why haven't you told me to shutthefuck up &stop being so whiney, yet? !!! 5 shes electriccc

[24 Oct 2005|06:13am] [ music | death cab for cutie ] it's not fair. i have to sit home on rainy days by myself watching movies. &even if they are the best movies anyone could wish to watch it doesn't matter. cause i'm all by myself. she told me you're around the corner but i think this whole time i've been so worried about not wasting it on him, i've walked right by this opportunity. i'm out of touch. &sad. &i don't have time for any of this. 1 shes electriccc

[20 Oct 2005|06:11am] sbc is fucking gay. don't ever get their internet service. i just don't know anymore. sitting at school. updating my livejournal. i should quit. especially since i don't have the internet. &my best friend is gone. &i'm sad. &you don't care anyways. really it's alright. i didn't want you to. 2 shes electriccc

[17 Oct 2005|06:42pm] [ mood | depressed ] i'm just praying you'll be okay. &i hope you aren't mad at me because i let my mom step in. i love you. please don't leave me. please please be okay. don't let this happen. i just hope you know i love you. 1 shes electriccc

shut up, you lush. [16 Oct 2005|11:57am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | copeland ] 1 shes electriccc

[14 Oct 2005|07:29pm] [ mood | drained ] stray a little bit farther, darling. you're nearly there; &really, there is no stopping. you should never stroke egos. even if they did need to hear it. i'm just a soppy mess. 1 shes electriccc

[11 Oct 2005|06:54pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | death cab for cutie ] words tumble forth from these trembling lips. it's no longer heartfelt, &i'm lost &shaking. there is so much to say, but my thoughts slip through my fingertips before i can pin them down with words. p.s. i am playing make-believe. shes electriccc

i need you so much closer. [10 Oct 2005|09:27pm] [ music | tegan & sara ] there's a graveyard inside my head. &i just wish i could bring myself to lay your corpse of memories to rest. haunt on, you mischevious zombie. 1 shes electriccc

[08 Oct 2005|07:45pm] [ music | nedelle ] we sat outside; night sky shining above. it was cold out, but you let me wear your jacket. &i laughed &talked about how wonderful you are. &when reality began to creep in, i put my hands over my face to block everything out. &you didn't think i was completely crazy. i need more. so play pretend. shes electriccc

[06 Oct 2005|06:29pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | grandaddy ] ignoring everything is the only thing i haven't completely forgotten how to do. life people words grades this alter reality i've created is making me sick to my stomach. &i'm still telling myself everything will be just fine when you get your car &license. i promise to stop, but sometimes you just gotta give me a little reminder. 1 shes electriccc

i've got my white flag out. [05 Oct 2005|04:21pm] [ music | the bled ] &i'm not picking up the phone: like clockwork, i've been struck with a sort of sadness; the sort where you lie in bed &long to be an addict, smoking cigarettes filtering out a depression slurring sweet relief; or at least a lush hands grasped around a forty death grip noosed around its throat; alcohol; the warrant to be a slut a sense of righteousness though he has her on her knees &that pretentious weakness showcased on forearms it screams an incoherent fucking mess. solace. it's fucking beautiful generally, i try to avoid these kind of people but i'm a hypocrital asshole i'm migrating to melodramatic. ♥ 2 shes electriccc

[04 Oct 2005|04:36pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | i can make a mess ] don't you dare blame me. i'll cut that tongue right out. i'm tired of blame &selfishness. i have no one to turn to. ♥ 5 shes electriccc

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